the Quicksilver Meat Dream

I dreamt the red whale song
Hold the moment strong
Then the moment's gone
I never can get enough
Again without the words
Again without the someone who will
Afford me some

This is me hangin' on
I once read a mind 'til dawn
Let the poem hum on emotion's
Rolled tongue
I've never yet had enough
Are we okay? Are we open?
Again without the someone
So this is me hangin' on
I'm hangin' on...
And this is my world
Now I'm spending every night
Being fed through a grinder
The price for falling down
I'm never through paying
I might be meat for minds
I may be numbered...hung
I might succumb
This is my world
And this is me hangin' on.

Rev high
Bend low and free the dead word
When I stand up and feel the head burst
When I stand out I'll hold it under
When I stand down I won't be down for long
Remember why you're not along

You choke
You take the dive and wonder why
You never elevated
You swallow
Your sky is dry
You're passing time alive
And medicated
A sublime death dream
Time gets to you like a lover
A broad side, full on dread
Gets to the one alone
It grabs you by the bone and swings
You up and all around
You choke
You take the dive and wonder why
You never elevated
You swallow
Your sky is dry
You're passing time alive
And medicated
You've run away from something sure
When you own your fear, feel undead
Feel undead and unlike anyone
Don't let it air out
Some will take it on the chin
I will meditate and know other lifetimes while the sum
Of almost every sorry will always find a way
Home and the way I long to live long and matter...live long in you
It doesn't matter

Even in the wreck house of a promise
Even in the gem blow of an awe fist
Everyone's an air flow through the blonde dirt
Everyone's an asshole in the wonder
When every commotion controls my wants
I lay down long and know other hurts

If it's not a problem
I want you to work me good
I want you in motion
I want you to go down full
I want you to yell
With your hair in my fingers
You know you make me so...
Misogynous
When I is us
Every time the bread breaks there's a hunger
Every second heart aches with a thunder
Heaven in the jet stream of a bong drain
Heaven in the meat dream of an all-way
When every emotion takes hold and haunts
I lay down hard and know other worlds
If it's not a problem
I want you to work me good
I want you in motion
I want you to go down full
I want you to yell
With your smell on my fingers
You know you make me so...
Misogynous
When I is us
You make me so
And now we know the sound
Of blue eyes rolled over, the smell of fine young hope
The feel and taste of always
So I can't yet shout and I can't roll over
And I'm breaking a sweat
It's time to wake up
Thank you, you've made me so...
And I is us

Undertow, you're thrown
An old God has one bolt left
In flight
An aeroplane in slow motion
While all around are dark days
With all around unsure
I'll hole up in the right place and wait
Until the tide has turned......With anger
                               I'm dead weight
                                                  I'm anchored
                                  
                              The

white dove has gone
The one world has come down hard
So why not
Share the pain of our problems
When all around are wrong ways
When all around is hurt
I'll roll up in an odd shape and wait
Until the tide has turned......With anger
                               I'm dead weight
                                                  I'm anchored
                              Can

somebody give me the 'all safe'
Can somebody tell me
I'm so well loved in the glow and stain
In the slow parade, will somebody tell me
I'm so well loved
...And the light that shines
Our road has overstated nothing while all the wine and hope
Are like a hill that you will climb slow for something you could
Not ever have
And when you said, 'Now the dream is dead, our autumns
Will never rise again'
You were right again and it hurts
Wild awesome friends
They face a plain red sober wind and know the pain
For what it is
They're always the ones who slow the drift
Who live for all that's more than this
Who live for all that burns
To choose their words ........With anger
                              And dead weight
                                                They're anchored
                            Went

looking for something good with August
In the rain and all I've ever saved
I'm stuck at the fork that hides
My road
Why does the ground take hold once every
Mile from home?

In light of my present mess
In light of my mental weather's turn
In light of all the crash and burn
I'll open my mind as wide as ever

The lie behind the lesson, the soul in the open well
It might have been fate, it might have been fortune
It might have been wine and a mellow head
I'm finding my way, finding the words
One body breaking
Someone come and rise up
Rise like the sun
If I am no one, somebody save me
Someone come and rise up
Pride doesn't own me now
But know that at times life kind of hurts
And know that I will live and learn
So more that survive, I will endeavour
The mind behind the message, alone on an ocean swell
It might have been grace, it might have been gorgeous
It might have been why I've settled in
A helpless man, a held out hand
Defining images that flow through my hope's
Surrender
The broken moments and pointing fingers
The closing of open minds
I might have been delayed, I might have been delirious
I might have been otherwise
Taking hammer blows like an animal
For others
So heavy was my weight

One night I fell
Rolled over, caught some good air home
Above a deep, ferocious hillside
Hell and malfunction
We know, need, feel, want
We grow it in our mind's sun
To all feed someone

Save all from their mountains
Save all from their drowning
Save all from their endless nights
Their suicides
So then I sink
In slow motion, can't hold my breath long
In water's deep aloha half-smile
It's swim or be sunken
And know there's no one to get me out
From under
So help me someone
Save all from their mountains
Save all from their drowning
Save all from their endless nights
Their suicides
Save all from their mountains
Save all from their drowning
Save all from their restless nights
Their suicides
A no-win in no light, in no pain, it ain't right
Make that strap tight, take my air away, make my chest ache
I will stay awake, I will think of love, think of truth
Think of why I never really said enough
I never won, I never showed enough
I fucking never had a run and it's too late now
One night in hell
I strolled outside, a breath of sweet air
Cold, in bare wet feet, I know I've woken
It's got to mean something
Save all from their mountains
Save all from their drowning
Save all from their sadness
Save all from their ranting
Save all from their silence
Save all from their grounding
Save all from their endless nights
Their suicides

Inside of a moment shines the wet unbelievable
Beside every problem there's a rat under siege
And broken with all the right drugs

In time, in depth, in present tense
I'm cold and awful, yes I know
Uptight, intent on making sense
We are who we are
Instead of a motion there's a rest unachievable
Because in a cold wind there's a laugh underneath
Unspoken in all the right tongues
In time, in depth, in present tense
I'm cold and awful, yes I know
Uptight, intent on making sense
We are who we are
In mind and breath, in my own head
I'm so unpopular, I know
In life and death and second chance
We are who we are
And half along
Were slaughtered in song
When left alone
We were unsafe
When all is done
To be honestly numb
Is all I can be lying here
Awake
A mild psychosis holds my hand underneath it all
A kind of ferocious old regret on its knees
And groping for just the right gun

Hey alright
That killer's overpaid
I never liked avenging angels
How good are they?
That killer's got it made

Who's got the stones?
Who's gonna be the goat?
Who's gonna find the love in danger
Then let it go?
I know you can't crawl
I know you'll rise above it all
You'll find a way to get out from under
'Cause you're a cannibal
You found that wall
And hit it like a wrecking ball
I feel the pain, I feel like a hunter
And you're the animal
Ram on, be gone, stay low
Be good, be great
Love
Gimme all your love
I'm juicy like a cold wind
Ain't that enough?

In time I'll find why everyone out there
In the painted sun
Has already found their root...they've found home
And I'm tired of beating every drum
For old friends that never come
Went looking for them once...and found none

I'm so unwound
And I know in my own way
I'm breaking down without screaming out loud
I'm facing up and reaching out
In the end I'll come around so shut your mouth
'Cause I can't stand or yell out...
Tell everyone I'm numb
Here lies the former undisturbed
A bit high and a candle burns
It's goin' all south...it's all gone
A red face that hides in nervous hands
Once a better friend that an enemy
Will I make another run...or am I done
Sometime I'll line up everyone out there
In a late day sun
For one deep and final breath...

Two ripe for solar, tender rust
Too unfortunate to wake up
Not a problem, don't blame us
In the warm of daylight's cunt
In the black hole of cream and sunbeds
In the break of a strong fast
In the opened heart of awareness there is us

She said how we get there doesn't matter
It's all how you breathe...and stay kind
And that I'm an enlightened bear
Though a scavenger through with scavenging
In a moment I'll lose my mind
In an hour I'll lose my substance
In my prime years I might unwind
On my deathbed I'll think of us as good on earth
My yarrow, my aloe and my changing needs
Smooth isn't effortless, soon doesn't wallow
In a poet's hands awakened
She's a moderate sexual artist
In a snowblind we are a fire
In the headlights we are a rabbit
In our downtime we're always on
In the dawn of time we were right there giving birth
A new lemon, two apples and the dream
Of us all
Entangled in the wet girl
Her island unto myself
Entangled like a left turn
When you lean on somebody else
We'll need the wise and fortunate to help out
Just so you know
We'll need the fire and effect of everything
We tell to ourselves
Underneath the red ringing bell
Wondering who has been ere before and fell
Underneath our vanity's high hope tight rope glow
So no-one knows we've become one
The most we can offer is awe and a well
Of intention
What is saved isn't lost here
Underneath the red ringing bell
Wondering who has been here before and fell

Then I woke, seven whole days gone
The sunrise is perfect
Taking aim, changing colours while it burns
It made my stomach turn
It made me quite unsure
A lesser diamond on a road with no horizon
Then it comes......I'm stardust

When a day hasn't been torture let me know
I'll find a way up, celebrate, then wake up
On the ground
I may define disturbed
A mental village burned
Connect to silence, say a prayer, let go of the rope
Then let it come
Now I'm done and I know
Because it hurts in all ways
In other words I am a passenger
A dream that's over
I'll let your wild ocean
Hold my light while you're quite broken...it's alright
I'll let your emotion roll my eyes
If not I apologize
Now I'm done
For once in my life I hurt
A slow train has overturned
And I am a passenger
A dream that's over

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